Mindfulness

There is so much going on around us that often times we get lost in the worldly view and social constraints. What if for a moment we phase out the world and focus on our mind. To be mindful is easier said then done. Exactly, what is practicing mindfulness?

Mindfulness, is the moment (in this moment) awareness of our thoughts and feelings. In the present moment, what are you thinking about and feeling.

When we get too caught up in the busyness of the world, we lose connection with one another – and ourselves. – Jack Kornfield

It is vital that we take the time, even if it is for a moment to re-center ourselves when we are feeling overwhelmed. Being mindful allows for mental clarity, which can allow you to see flawed thinking.

We can ultimately free ourselves from the bondage of our mind if we just allow ourselves to be vulnerable to our own self.

Take a moment today and allow the constraints of your mind to be freed, and be mindful.

In the pursuit of happiness and health,

Nicole

The Weight of the World

We live in this fast-paced society where we “must” and “have” to do what is thrown at us. Often, it leaves us feeling bewildered, inadequate, and unhappy. What if we can take it upon ourselves to make the change to deal with what this world throws at us? It starts within us, and it is recognizing our strengths and weaknesses which is something we are not normally cognizant about.

One thing that has helped me was realizing that I am only one person, and that I know I give my best when faced with adversity and what the world can throw at me. It is recognizing that when you are faced with a plethora of things being thrown at you, that you must seek help, advice, or just simply let it be known you are overwhelmed. I feel that accepting that I am just one person, and I can only do what I can do has allowed me to conquer through trying situations.

You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf. – Jon Kabat-Zinn

Re-centering yourself in a situation, moment at work, at home, with your family or spouse, or even in everyday life will allow you to deal with whatever the world may throw at you. It has given me a sense of peace to know that I cannot know nor do everything that can be thrown at me. Everything we are faced with, given, expected to do, take time, effort, and perseverance.

Just know that if you feel like you cannot carry the weight of the world, do not expect yourself to. Take one step at a time, because each step we take in our lives leads us to our goals and dreams. Before we know it, we will have within us to take on what the world throws our way.

In the pursuit of happiness and health,

Nicole

Looking back

Where to start.

It’s been a wild and crazy journey thus far. I intended to blog weekly but life happens, you  know? I started this blog roughly around the time I began my nursing career. A lot of change was happening that I didn’t realize how negatively I was impacted.

I figured ICU nursing was for me. All I wanted to do was be an ICU nurse – nothing else mattered, and that was the problem that led me this revelation. I put my career before my happiness, which ended up downspiraling into my marriage and friendships.

I focused so much on how to be the perfect nurse, that I ended up losing myself in the process. I never took a step back to analyze what I was doing or how it was affecting my self as a whole. So, I left the ICU and decided perhaps this wasn’t where I was supposed to be at the time. I decided to delve into circulating the Operating Room.

I found peace in my new role as a circulating nurse. I so desperately wanted to find my niche that I found myself in the same conundrum as I did before. I mean who doesn’t want to be the best at their job? I was missing something, a void I felt deep within me. I had this trajectory of how I wanted everything to go. Start nurse practioner school in 2019, finish, and then start a family in my 30’s. I had these expectations for  myself on what I thought “success” really entailed that I was blinded and in my own reality.

I found that “success” is being successful in yourself. What have you done for yourself to make life more successful, fulfilling, whole. That was the question I asked myself that allowed me to see how skewed my mindset was.

The greatest accomplishment (or success) I’ve had thus far is becoming a mom. I have truly been challenged in learning how to be the best mom for my child. Parenting is the hardest thing I have ever done, yet it has been the most rewarding experience. This is my success.

In the pursuit of happiness and health,

Nicole

Once an Athlete, Always an Athlete

Everyone that has ever competed in a sport whether recreational or competitively, has been told at one point in time or another that “once you’re an athlete, you’re always an athlete”. I did not realize just what those words would truly mean or what kind of impact they would have throughout my running career.

Once you’ve done something for so long it becomes second nature; It is part of your routine like making coffee in the morning, or driving your car to work. Being a athlete is an identity. Once that identity is compromised and stripped away, there is no direction or motivation to do anything. I could only imagine that others out there can understand the struggle.

There is such a thing as depression for athletes, and I never realized or thought that this would happen to me. The experience is truly painful. It is a mentally, emotionally, and physically draining roller-coaster ride that feels like it has no end. No one else can fully understand or know how you feel, or even why you are so down all the time. You try hard to pick yourself back up, yet you can’t even hold yourself. If you feel like you have no direction, are feeling hopeless, don’t even know who you are as a person, I can tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel – Keep the faith and hold onto that glimmer of hope! It is going to take some time and soul-searching.

It takes courage to recognize that you are feeling these very feelings right now. You feel like you can’t even identify with who you are because you’re not even close to where you were. But, you will always have that part of yourself no matter how far you are you away from it, it just takes time, patience, and re-identifying your roots.

You may have this thought at this present moment or in the past of, “how can I identify the old me”?  It’s recognizing that you have within yourself the power to get back to where you want to be, if not better.

I feel that being able to push through the tough times and persevere is what made me the great athlete I was and still am, deep down! It is comforting knowing that the struggles molded me into the athlete I became. I was determined to push through the pain and it made me stronger. It made me want to work harder to be an even better version of myself to become the best “me”.

Once you get over that hurdle, once you push through that negative mindset, the sky is the limit! You will be able to do anything you set your mind to. Like my coaches told me, “running is half mental, half physical”. That statement has truly guided my personal and professional life.

Redefine who you are, and be even better than you were!

In the pursuit of happiness and health,

Nicole